Saturday, December 11, 2010

Sober (Kelly Clarkson)

An Uninvited Likeness

Sometimes I look in the mirror

And don’t know the person

Looking back at me.

I don’t know where I am

Or how I got here.

I had a life that was not this.

I had a girl who said she would always love me.

Everything is different now.

I have been thrust into a life that is so foreign to me.

Thought I had it all mapped out.

[I had a plan.]

She was The One

But now she’s just a memory.

The years we spent together are

Now just another part of my past.

[I have to get used to living without her.]

Looking in the mirror

I see someone broken.

Someone unsure-

Afraid of this new life.

But somewhere behind all of that

I catch a glimpse of myself.

I need to learn how to coax

Me out into this new world

And tell myself that

I will be okay.


12/10

One Hand (Alanis Morissette)

Consider This My Warning Label

An advance apology

For any potential

Future love interests.

Those cute girls with

The great personalities.

Who wear glasses

Or paint pictures;

Write poetry

Or sing songs.

I apologize for all

Of the emo break up poetry

That you have been,

And will be,

Subjected to reading.

The thing is-

I think you’re amazing.

And I find it remarkable

That you find something

Of interest in me.

But I’m just going through it right now.

We’ve all been there.

Heartbroken and trying to deal

The best way we can.

And this is my way-

I write about it.

All of it.

And I know it probably sucks

For you to read.

For that I’m sorry..

But one day it will stop.

And there will be no more poems about

You know who.

So until then I just

Gotta work through this-

Gotta get back to myself.

I’m trying to fix up this heart of mine

So it’s ready for you.


Whoever you may be.


12/10

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Spiderwebs (No Doubt)

Eyes Wide Shut

“Love had me blinded, man.”

Wait,

Did you really just say that to me?

Way to take a fucking dig

And kick me while I’m down, man.

And what do you mean exactly..

Maybe that you never really loved me

And now you can see the light?

Or

Now you see me for who I “really” am

And you’re disgusted by it?

You know,

This whole conversation has been a mind fuck.

And quite frankly-

I’m over it.

I’m over all of the mind fucking you’ve

Been doing to me lately.

I REFUSE to be that pathetic

Ex-girlfriend that keeps hanging on

And cannot take a fucking hint.

So this is me heading for the exit.

I’m walking through those doors

And I’m not looking back.


I.

Am.

Done.


11/10

Friday, November 26, 2010

Prototype (Outkast)

Allies in Anticipation

I was going to reach out to you.

But I didn’t want to overstep my boundaries..

Or make you upset.

Wanted to let you know

That I feel closer to you-

I share your pain.

I don’t know how you’ve been dealing

With this for so long-

That dreaded unrequited Love.

I feel what you feel.

And now I understand why you

Do the things that you do-

It’s all a distraction.

Trying to keep your mind off

Of the one person you want

But cannot have.

And sometimes in the process

We fall victim to bad decision making

[ I’m guilty of the same.]

Doing things we aren’t proud of

Just to forget about the hurt-

Even if only for a moment.


So, how do you do it?

How are you able to lead

A seemingly normal life ?

I feel as if pieces of me are

Missing and I do not know

If I’ll ever be whole again..

Is this the reason you go after

Unattainable people-

To be sure no real relationship will form?

Leaving yourself available for

The day when he chooses you..

Doesn’t seem like a satisfying life to live-

Waiting.

Although,

It looks like I may be joining you.


God damn this heart of mine.

And yours.


11/10

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Bad Romance (Lady Gaga)

I Wanted to Write You a Nice Poem

I wanted to write you

A nice poem-

About fireworks and

The fourth of July..

I remember standing with you

In that field,

My arms around your waist

And you leaning back into me.

It was one of the happiest moments

I’ve ever shared with you.

We were totally connected..

Almost as if it were only

You and me out there and

Those fireworks were just for us.

A declaration of our Love-

For everyone to see

And for us to feel.


So, yeah..


I was gonna write you a

Nice,

Sweet poem

But then it happened-

The Fighting,

The Crying and

The Devastating Realization.


Although,

It kinda looks like you

Might have gotten

That nice poem anyway..


11/10